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Tuesday, 5 September 2017

Back to happy - no twist in my sobriety!

Silver went out last night and I haven’t seen her since. She’s a real character, though. When I went into the kitchen last night, to wash dishes, she sat by my feet looking up with hopeful eyes meowing occasionally ... and walked away in disgust when I showed her the wet dishes! It’s not that she’s hungry – she’s got tinned fish for cats, Bob Martin pellets, milk; everything in her bowl. She turned up her nose at the fish – sorry girl, if you won’t eat it, I’ll put it outside for the strays! Yet still, every time I set foot in the kitchen, she’s by my feet either sitting hopeful or stretching up to the counter.

Two of our newer fellows sent a message thanking the fellowship for welcoming them, but now they’re leaving due to real life issues. At that point something went click in my mind: I, too, will leave the fellowship. Not in a huff, not in disgust, but simply because I’m not a good fit. I’ll message our Archmage tonight, letting him know that I’ll be putting out feelers to find a better fit. Once he’s read that, I’ll announce it to the fellowship – while at the same time putting out feelers to find a better fit. At least, that’s the plan at this moment – but I’ll decide on the details later. Composing the message will take me some time, because I want there to be no drama – I’m not leaving because they are all wrong, I’m leaving because I don’t fit. Well, they’re not as active or team-working as I’d like – but I will make sure that won’t come through. I do NOT want to cause another split in the fellowship, like when the drama queen left! I want for the fellowship to continue as they are – no bad blood, no hissing, no questions. They are a cheery, helpful, albeit a bit haphazard bunch – and I’m too much the perfectionist. I’m thinking of putting my feelers out in the Facebook Group, where my game-name isn’t linked so I won’t get courted under false pretenses only because of my high score (which will be added towards the fellowship’s ranking). But that’s a matter for tonight.

At work I’m getting upset at this designer, who places orders directly with suppliers, CCs me in the mail then demands I take responsibility for them. He bypasses the ‘system’ to speed up the process, doesn’t provide all the data I need, to add it to my records then has the audacity to state that I’m not doing my job! What I’m not doing is what he assumes I’m supposed to do – but his assumption doesn’t make it my job! Grrr.

On the other hand, I, too could relax a bit. This deadline task has me all uptight again – why? I now have a site manager who has my back. Who is calm and efficient and does not pressure me to do more than I can. So why am I working myself up again? Old habit! It’s making me miserable, frustrated – so how about I snap out of it and get back to the cheery, helpful, and happy me?

I got frustrated earlier, when I was asked to record the delivery notes related to a suppliers invoice – because that supplier has no grasp on the concept. It took me two hours, it was such a mess! He invoices against his own quote-numbers with no reference anywhere to anything in our records, not a list of what items he’s invoicing for, not reference to our order, nothing. Just his own quote number and the amount – listed as an Item, not in the column for amounts. I do wonder just how South African business expect to get paid when they have no grasp of documentation. I mean, the way they cobble together their invoices, you even have to check the math! Since they don’t list items, let alone item costs, in the allocated columns – they end up doing their sums on a calculator, then typing it in. Ai, ai, ai.

At home, two more Iris’ have opened during the day and another is likely to bloom tomorrow! I went to water the garden, and took the camera for a few shots … only to find myself back upstairs, with a host of photos but the beds still dry! So I had to go back down and water everything.


I got a bit tied up with household chores, so maybe I’ll post the pics tomorrow night.

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