Mippies were nice to me this morning, they let me relax until seven. Oh, once the alarm goes off, I don't really sleep anymore, just doze a bit. But by 7, Mewthos had had enough. Sat at my ear, full volume mewl - I nearly jumped out of my bed like a cartoon!
The DA published the updated numbers 9 hours ago ... I was already asleep at the time. And I no longer check the governments website - it's slower than the DA and is taking longer and longer to load.
307 752 tested, 8 895 confirmed, 3 153 recovered, 178 deaths.
Here an interview with South Africa's top epidemiologist, Dr Salim Karim, who heads the advisory council.
Today, I've decided to try a different experiment. Instead of rationing my smoking, I want to see how long I can hold out if I don't have that first smoke in the morning. Whether the craving works like alcohol craving - which I can only crave, IF there is alcohol in my body. It's been 2 hours so far ... and counting ...
Remember how I cleaned one area of the kitchen quite thoroughly, yesterday? Well. Guess who brought in a mouse and is mipping around that 'no longer clean' area of the kitchen? Ziva first caught it, she came in with it, while she was covered in water and mud herself! Next Mewthos came to join, equally wet and muddy ... and then Mini sat at the gas bottle, waiting for the mouse to come out from behind it! I was finally able to catch the mouse - it's now in a box in the top shelf (way out of mippies' reach!). I'm hoping this one will also sit still for a long time before risking movement ... I want to set it free, as soon as it is safe!
I haven't heard at all from my colleague, whether any delivery actually arrived! Just as I thought: can't rely on anyone! And I've now used up almost all my minutes - I'm going to have to buy some more when I go shopping, so I can call At again. I'm also not impressed with the store - I mean, I specifically asked about stock BEFORE placing the order! I explained about the difficulty receiving deliveries ... I expected them to have the courtesy to send everything in ONE delivery! After all, that costs them less, too. But no! They are sending everything in drips and drabs! Now, ever if my colleague called, there is just no way I can possibly know WHAT has arrived and what hasn't.
Anyway, I've decided to take my chances on Monday. I have found an old scarf - well, it's an 80s Germany fashion thing, made of material, not knitted. I just need to figure out how to tie it.
Speaking of the 80s, I decided to watch some original videos of some of my favourite songs ... which, of course, leads to sing-a-long and dancing. And do you know what? Cats are scared! Apparently they have never seen me sing-a-long and dance!
Nena's 99 Luftballons is hauntingly relevant to the current situation ...
I haven't had the patience to log into the game today. I've managed to not smoke since I got up, 5 1/2 hours ago ... but now, I'm reaching the end of the rope. I can't focus, I can't concentrate, I can't think ... I need to plan food - and I'm just not managing this simple task?
I managed to set the mouse free without any mip observing me!
So, I sort of gave in. I rolled myself Earl Grey and smoked it. Part of me feels that, if I make it through today without a cigarette, that will be a victory - but just not smoking a cigarette is not enough: I still need to eat, and that requires some planning.
Mewthos and Mini are sharing the armchair again - too cute! The darkest black cat mixed with the lightest white-grey - they're opposites in so many ways!
Back to the hard life. If I'm planning to pull this off and really abstain from nicotine ... I think I'm going to need chocolate muffins. I'll need SOMETHING to replace what's missing. The vaper helps, but it gets hot so fast and takes ages to cool back down again ... I wonder if I can have just one smoke now? If it will kick start a chain-smoke? I still have cigarettes ... it's not the end of the world, if I smoke ...
Okay, so, no victory today. I held out for 8 1/2 hours, though! That's a victory, too!
I managed to bake a batch of muffins and now I'm frying two mini steaks. I couldn't find any nice, big steak in the freezer. It's been a roller-coaster mood day today. From singing & dancing to such extreme irritability ... I had to literally hold myself back from smashing something! I HATE this lack of control over moods - well, everybody does. But this makes me all the more grateful, that I don't suffer from any chronic condition, like depression, bipolar, that I'm not at the mercy of moods. I always know what is causing the lack of control - and I'm fortunate that it's all temporary. Even though I don't know when I'll finally be through the particular cause ...
I went outside just before five again. Mewthos and Mini were already around, Janey showed up fairly soon, and we waited for Ziva. Leon came around and told me that they tried to break in again last night, his worker called him around eight last night. He says its the workers of the guy who just moved in, with the cattle. He thinks they tried to steal oranges off his tree ... people are hungry. Hunger makes desperate. But, if they're employed, they should have food!
Ziva showed up nice and early, so I led them all inside and gave them their evening treat! Then I went outside and had one more cigarette - the 3rd of the day! Lets hope it will be the last.
I've posted a meme about the prisoners out / lockdown rule breakers into prison. A friend from Italy replied that the same is happening in their country. Then I had an interesting discussion with a friend from USA, sharing similar authoritarian, illogical rules. I feel somewhat better knowing that it's not ONLY South Africa. And yes, until this discussion, the impression USA gave was 2 camps: conspiracy theorists who don't believe there is a virus & just want to get out vs people like me (no, I'm not giving more details, ha ha!). It was good to hear simple, non-spewing statements - not from an extremist.
Now, I'm running myself a bath. I'm not too sure about tomorrow, though. I'm planning to minimise smoking again ... so the only thing I really must get done is write a shopping list for Monday and look up WHERE I plan to shop.
I managed to set the mouse free without any mip observing me!
So, I sort of gave in. I rolled myself Earl Grey and smoked it. Part of me feels that, if I make it through today without a cigarette, that will be a victory - but just not smoking a cigarette is not enough: I still need to eat, and that requires some planning.
Mewthos and Mini are sharing the armchair again - too cute! The darkest black cat mixed with the lightest white-grey - they're opposites in so many ways!
Back to the hard life. If I'm planning to pull this off and really abstain from nicotine ... I think I'm going to need chocolate muffins. I'll need SOMETHING to replace what's missing. The vaper helps, but it gets hot so fast and takes ages to cool back down again ... I wonder if I can have just one smoke now? If it will kick start a chain-smoke? I still have cigarettes ... it's not the end of the world, if I smoke ...
Okay, so, no victory today. I held out for 8 1/2 hours, though! That's a victory, too!
I managed to bake a batch of muffins and now I'm frying two mini steaks. I couldn't find any nice, big steak in the freezer. It's been a roller-coaster mood day today. From singing & dancing to such extreme irritability ... I had to literally hold myself back from smashing something! I HATE this lack of control over moods - well, everybody does. But this makes me all the more grateful, that I don't suffer from any chronic condition, like depression, bipolar, that I'm not at the mercy of moods. I always know what is causing the lack of control - and I'm fortunate that it's all temporary. Even though I don't know when I'll finally be through the particular cause ...
I went outside just before five again. Mewthos and Mini were already around, Janey showed up fairly soon, and we waited for Ziva. Leon came around and told me that they tried to break in again last night, his worker called him around eight last night. He says its the workers of the guy who just moved in, with the cattle. He thinks they tried to steal oranges off his tree ... people are hungry. Hunger makes desperate. But, if they're employed, they should have food!
Ziva showed up nice and early, so I led them all inside and gave them their evening treat! Then I went outside and had one more cigarette - the 3rd of the day! Lets hope it will be the last.
I've posted a meme about the prisoners out / lockdown rule breakers into prison. A friend from Italy replied that the same is happening in their country. Then I had an interesting discussion with a friend from USA, sharing similar authoritarian, illogical rules. I feel somewhat better knowing that it's not ONLY South Africa. And yes, until this discussion, the impression USA gave was 2 camps: conspiracy theorists who don't believe there is a virus & just want to get out vs people like me (no, I'm not giving more details, ha ha!). It was good to hear simple, non-spewing statements - not from an extremist.
Now, I'm running myself a bath. I'm not too sure about tomorrow, though. I'm planning to minimise smoking again ... so the only thing I really must get done is write a shopping list for Monday and look up WHERE I plan to shop.
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