Lock-down Day 727

Not a good night. I woke up some time after two, and when I came back I found my duvet wet. I assumed a puddle - but I was wrong. Someone had been sick. Right on my duvet!

I struggled to go back to sleep - no, I'm not changing the duvet in the middle of the night! Yes, its disgusting, but I've learned to tolerate this level of yuk.

I woke up late, and - apparently with butterfingers. When I tried to take my supplement, the bottle slipped and smashed. On the kitchen counter! I had to throw everything away, as tiny splinters are everywhere ... that's a blow! Those supplements aren't cheap, and the bottle was at least 2/3rds full! I can NOT afford to replace that, not the way things stand at the moment ... so, I've decided to stop taking supplements.

I already don't have enough left to buy groceries tomorrow, let alone next week - so I will have to pay those with my credit card. Then put the money back, when I get paid, to avoid the exorbitant interest rate. Hopefully, next month, I'll manage all the way through the month again.

I am so very tired of this kind of struggle. At times like this, I feel so hopeless, reminiscent of how I used to feel when I was still drinking ... wishing this life would get itself over and done with, I want to get out.

I just keep telling myself that this, too, shall pass.

Anyway. Apparently there is finally an end in sight to this lock down! Our government is busy incorporating restrictions into the Health and Safety Act! I don't know what to say ... seems like Scylla & Charybdis, or rather 'out of the fire into the frying pan'.

For now, at least some restrictions have been lifted. No more wearing masks outdoors. Yeah, that's it. And any indoor entertainment is dependent on vaccination (or a recent proof of negative test results).

Oh, and I was waiting for the third blow: I'm to pick up At & take him home for the next 3 days! Thursday, Friday and Monday! That's an hour out of my way ... and with the morning traffic? The earlier I leave, the less traffic ... Sigh ...

Anyway. Back at home, first I carefully swept the kitchen, wet-wiped the counter and just did everything I could to make sure there are no glass fragments left. Then I cleaned up my bed. And lastly, cleaned the litter boxes.

Outside, I'm spreading Marigold seeds far and wide next to the grill - all from the Marigold which had already grown there! None from my stash, yet! I've also added some soil to the 'bed'. Progress is slow, but steady.

I've showered, enjoyed some of my dinner - shared with mippies - and now I'm just going to relax ...

Oh, and that toad? It's back! Seriously! In the Rosemary bottle! Mewthos was sniffing around, and it hopped out ... so I shoed Mewthos away and we went inside.

Well ... tomorrow night I probably won't have time to garden. I'm thinking of leaving early - maybe avoid the traffic?

I just don't know a way out ... a way forward ...