Another early morning, but I slept well.
Car started.
Work was quite hectic - sudden flurry of e-mails ...
I dreaded this afternoon's discussion the whole day, though. Just wanted to get it over with ... on a whim, I messaged a friend, and she really helped me big time! I ended up sending him a WhatsApp, making it clear that my answer is no.
As I was typing the message, he called, I carried on typing and sent ... he was outside the gate at the time ... which had me hiding in my house like a crook, waiting to see what he would say ...
I forwarded his reply to my friend, she read the gas-lighting tone in it ... I didn't reply. He sent another message later ... I'll sleep on it. Maybe I'll reply tomorrow.
You'd think that at my age, and with everything that I've been through, I'd be strong enough to stand up for myself, wouldn't you? Well, clearly I'm not! Look how much abuse I took from my last landlord! And I never stood up for myself - I just moved out. Ran away.
And no, I don't feel inferior or think less of myself for that. It doesn't make me weak - it's just that my strong point is survival, and not standing up to bullies. Can't have it all! And I'm okay with who I am.
Anyway, that was my afternoon, when I should have been mowing the lawn, methinks! I took a look out front, when I watered my Marigold and Avocado - it'll be okay to leave it for another week. But the back lawn, I should mow - but that doesn't take long, anyway.
Well, mippies are inside and their tummies are full of yummies - three. Yes, I'm a softie! I'm done for the day ... totally knackered. Hoping for a fresh start tomorrow! And maybe some time to publish my Gardening Journal - I've been uploading photos, but that's all this week ...
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