I was very surprised to wake up at five thirty this morning - even before my Mewlarm went off! Why? Well, because last night I just could not get to sleep! I tossed, I turned, I got up, I tickled tummies, I cuddled mippies, I scratched ears, then tickled more tummies, got up again, I tried everything. I went to bed around nine, and the last time I checked it was half past midnight! I was sure I would oversleep!
I made myself an extra flask of coffee to take to work, though. Sooner or later this lack of sleep will get to me. But at least I was wide awake when I set the bread machine and I remember not just setting it, but switching it on as well. So: dough will be ready when I get home!
I made a cardboard-covered-by-foil baking tray for the loaf of bread, last night still. It'll be interesting to see how that will work out? I am a little worried about it being a fire hazard ... I'll be close by watching ...
I've had a chat with At and he's also concerned that the cardboard might get so hot that it starts burning, even though it's not exposed to an open flame. So, to be on the safe side, I think I'll use only foil tonight.
Oh, yummy! My chocolates have arrived! I don't know what it is with me and chocolates, but at least it doesn't take much to make me happy, eh?
I'd been feeling somewhat down yesterday and started re-reading some old posts from my blog. Like the day my mippies were born, etc. That's cheered me up a bit - but I also notice that, from about January on, I also have low energy! I guess that's a seasonal thing with me? That's depressing!
At work I'm getting somewhat disgruntled. It's one of the things that kept my mind buzzing throughout last night - how can I break this merry-go-round of nothing-changes? I've already tried such a lot of approaches, ideas, systems ... but it's like farting against thunder!
I just tried to discuss one of the issues, which had come up this morning - only to get screamed and shouted at! Yikes! And they say women are the emotional sex? He then stomped off to get our boss involved - but I know he won't get involved. I was right, ha ha! Now this guys is stomping around like a bull who's caught a glimpse of something red but can't find it again! I'm so sick and tired of these childish tantrums!
I've been feeling down in the dumps all day already, and this really didn't cheer me up! The 'down in the dumps' is probably mostly a menopausal side effect - they're such fun, aren't they? Yes, work is reason enough - every approach I've tried so far got a lot of talk 'yes, I'll organise this' and 'great idea, I'll get the ball rolling' ... but talk is all that ever happens!
Okay, I feel a little better now: the tantrum thrower has apologised for shouting at me!
And it's almost time to go home ... only, once I'm at home, I just get down again! And then I end up unable to sleep and staying up half the night! Vicious circle! How do I break free?
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